MaxAeriouslt

(Source: tokyo-silk)

The worst feeling ever is when you say something to someone who understands you the most, but he ends up misunderstanding what you said completely. He takes your words, and interprets them the way it suits him best. He doesn’t wait for an explanation, he doesn’t wait for it to get better… It is almost like he loves giving himself and others hard time. Anyways, you come to the conclusion that no one really understands you, NOBODY… Maybe you don’t even understand your own self. You just feel lost, empty, and cold. You wait till what you said is forgotten. No one ever forgets it though, everyone tends to use everything you say against you. They make you look like the bad guy, the one who is ruining every relationship, the one who says something and its opposite, the one who is inconsiderate and selfish, and the one who gets on everybody’s nerves. I am starting to believe that I am this person. I heard it a lot in the past couple of months, now I am saying it. I am selfish, inconsiderate, bitchy, a nut case, needy, winy, and an idiot. No matter how hard I try, no one seems to notice that I am. No matter how hard I try to do it, to get by each day, no one seems to care. By the end of almost each day, when I lie my head down on my cold pillow, I realize that I don’t have anyone but myself. I have nobody, and that won’t ever change.